Have Been Sick in Hospital; Very Sorry To All Friends

I am very, very sorry to all my friends and readers who look at my website. I have not put up any posts in over three weeks. The reason is that I have experienced a nervous breakdown and spent a week in a hospital during Thanksgiving week. I have never been in an inpatient mental treatment facility before in my life. Had some of the hardest days I’ve ever experienced, but overall it was a positive experience. I committed myself, because I did not want to experience a breakdown at home in front of my children and wife.

The reasons for my nervous breakdown included longstanding extended family conflict and cutoff in communications, and my oldest son’s worsening autism and Asperger’s symptoms. He was having many, frequent loud crying fits in school and other places due to very low frustration threshold. At school, due to bureaucratic regulations, administrators refused to give my son an IEP (Individual Extra-Help Plan) or an adult shadow in class to help him with frustration by answering questions quickly so he would not panic. They refused because he is at grade-level for academic achievement. Their “solution” was to shut him up in a printer closet by himself whenever he suffered a fit, with a monitor standing outside. Other children, including Levi’s younger brother, Asher, could hear him crying and screaming in this room; Asher said Levi was in the dark. Teacher would let Levi out when fit subsided after 20 minutes or so. Never told Dara or me about this printer room isolation; we found out from third parties who are friends. Later I experienced one of Levi’s hour long fits in public when I had little son Judah with me. It was terrible; made me feel like I had been in a car accident but body had not yet experienced extent of physical injuries. Early next week I experienced my first panic attack at work — was afraid blood pressure had spiked and was having a stroke or a heart attack. Nurse took my blood pressure; was normal! But immediately started crying and screaming about Levi. A week later, after bad reaction to one medication, I admitted myself to hospital.

New medication I am on for anxiety makes me very slumberous/comatose and feels a little like I suffered a benign stroke. Talking and writing are difficult; must do both very slowly, with much concentration. Cannot operate car or “heavy machinery.” Even walking Romeo, my big dog, exhausts me with effort of concentration. So many projects are being delayed until medication can be altered; I cannot stay on what I am on now because it is addictive long term, and besides, it does not seem right for me, although it does help control my panic attacks. This is the first time I am typing since leaving the hospital, although I hand wrote a journal there.

Here’s what’s going on with MonstraCity Press. Fire on Iron is out in Kindle and I think is out in Smashwords formats now. We have received proof copy of paperback book from Createspace and are having my sister-in-law proofread it. It should be available for order soon. My next Jules Duchon Fat White Vampire novel, Fat White Vampire Otaku, is completely written but not yet edited and formatted by Dara. We had planned for the paperback to be available for order during December, but now this will be delayed by a few months, maybe two months. I am very sorry to my friend Marita Jaeger at Boutique du Vampyre down in New Orleans, because she had on her website that Jules Duchon fans among her customers could advance order Fat White Vampire Otaku for Christmas. Now it will be February, 2014 at the earliest. I will soon return to working on the second “Midnight’s Inferno: the August Micholson Chronicles” book, Hellfire and Damnation, as soon as I can write fiction again; maybe in a month. It is the direct sequel to Fire on Iron. I still hope to have that one come out in April, 2014, as originally planned. The book which was supposed to come out in February, 2014, The Bad Luck Spirits’ Social Aid and Pleasure Club, will be rescheduled for sometime in the summer; it connects up with Fat White Vampire Otaku.

I am very, very sorry to disappoint my readers and friends. I truly love you all. God Bless each one of you. And please pray for me and my family. Thank you all very, very much. I love you.

6 comments

  1. Marian says:

    Found this. Sorry to read of your troubles but glad that you are on the mend.

  2. Chris Limbach says:

    Stop apologizing. You have done nothing wrong. My heart is with you Andy and yours, and I have sincere empathy relating to having an autistic son. Take care of yourself so you can take of your family.
    Warmest regards,
    Chris Limbach

    • Andrew says:

      Chris, God bless your heart! You’ve left me one of the most meaningful messages I’ve received yet. What is the situation with your son? I was not aware he was on the spectrum(?). Blessings to you and your family. Please continue to keep in touch. I’ll try to stop apologizing!
      –Andy

  3. MAY MILLER says:

    I DIDN’T SEE THIS ONE BEFORE, ANDY. DAVID SENT IT TO ME, SO NOW I KNOW ABOUT THE AUTISM AND ASPERGERS. I’M CONSTANTLY THINKING OF YOU AND FAMILY AND HOPING THE THERAPY WILL DO THE TRICK FOR YOU. I’M GOING TO EMAIL TO YOU ABOUT ANOTHER COUSIN OF MINE (ON MY MOTHER’S SIDE) WHO HAS EXPERIENCED SAME PROBLEMS WITH BOTH HER SONS. SHE CAN BE A HUGE HELP AND WANTS TO SHARE WITH YOU WHAT SHE HAS LEARNED.
    LOVE YOU,

    MAY

    • Andrew says:

      May, God bless you! Please thank David for sharing my “BAD NEWS” with you, as painful as that must have been for him. I appreciate your putting your cousin in touch with me. I’ll look forward to reading whatever she has to write to us. Please, please continue to email or call! I miss you!
      –Andy

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